The Smashing Pumpkins . Demos

Autumn
  billy corgan - 2000 - 2:01
  machina era - solo/acoustic demo - ds "machina acoustic demos"
  Instrumentale

Autumn Nocturne
  billy corgan - 1995 - 1:26
  aka "fools we are" - aka "strollin"
  Rollin' with the breeze Do what you please
  I guess you'd say We'll take the whole day
  Skip out of school Run around and act like the fools that we are
  Ain't gonna do anyone any harm Train whistle at our backs
  Laid our pennies down the tracks Forget our cares
  I guess you'd say We'll take the whole day
  Go for a swim Dry off in the wind
     The sun's goin' down so we better get back
     It's too easy to stay
     So lazy, hazy, maybe crazy
     Rollin' with the breeze Do what you please
     So take it easy, yes, please
     Strollin' with the leaves

Because You Are
  billy corgan - adore outtake
  "judas o"
because you are (x)
i've got the tremor to say
because you are
.. stranger betray
i love my senses ashamed
i will deny all that i ever faked
lies will disguise
rules the time ending games
because you are (x)
... the rust off my face
i wipe the stain of my hands
i am released ...
because you are
i stare inside empty face
i will deny
all that i ever ...
lies will disguise
rules the time ending games
because you are
because you are
whisper...
because you are
I try to ...
because you are
...try to be here

Chewing Gum
  billy corgan - fév 97 chicago recording compagny - 3:00
  "adore demos"
chewing gum
wonderin' where i've hid and what i've done
wonderin' where i'll go and where i'll run
hide myself away from everyone
chewing gum
doesn't bother you that you're not the one
keeps you up at night in a fever dream
to count the simple pieces of your mystique
it's yours to keep
chewing gum
innocence lost in electric smiles
perfectly cast in desperate clothes
lovingly hung from city lights
with all their might
and all i need is you by my side
by my side by my side
chewing gum
wonderin' i've hid and what i've done
wonderin' where i'll go and where i'll run
hide myself away from everyone
chewing gum
got myself a piece of chewing gum (x4)

C'mon
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 4:47
  "early 1989 demos" - "may we have a record contract, please ?" - "sounds of turnips"
  live le 31/10/89 au chicago metro
     Yeah, yeah, c’mon
     Yeah, yeah, c’mon
  Peel away the skin
  Wondering what you’ll see
     Yeah, yeah, c’mon
  When you feel it, real slow And you’re reelin’ from the show
  When you’re reachin’ from the floor Then you’re seein’ you at the door
     Yeah, yeah, yeah
     Yeah, yeah, c’mon
  I can’t find the day
  Wondering who I’ll be
  When you feel it, real slow And you’re reelin’ from the show
  Ain’t lookin’ for trouble, ain’t lookin’ to see Just want a motherfucker like you and me
     C’mon
     Yeah Yeah

Death Boogie
  enregistrée pendant les sessions de machina - pas d'autre info
  nov 98 oct 99 chicago recording company

Depresso
  billy corgan - nov 1994 pumpkinland - 3:01
  ds "mcis demos II" - morceau ds pastichio medley
  Instrumentale

Disco King
  billy corgan - version précédente et différente de the everlasting gaze - dans "friends and enemies of modern music"
the disco nights are over now
sittin' tight in the fallout
was it love or chemical?
fascination or oh so dreadful?
you run, you run, you run so slow
you run, you run alone
you know i'm not dead
'cause i'm living in my head
'cause i am waiting in the ways of desire
you always find a way
and through the fall, into us all you move
forgotten touch
forbidden thought
we never, ever have enough
you know i'm not dead
you know i'm not dead
i'm just livin' in my head
you know i'm not dead
the disco nights are over now
sittin' hollow in the fallout
was it love or was it chemical?
fascination or oh so dreadful?
you run, you run, you run so slow
you run, you run alone
you know i'm not dead
i'm just living in my head
'cause i am waiting in the ways of desire
you always find a way
and through the fall, into us all you move
forgotten touch
forbidden thought
we can never have enough
in the ways of desire
you always find a way
and through the fall, into us all you move
forgotten touch
forbidden thought
we can never have enough
you know i'm not dead
you know i'm not dead

Do You Close Your Eyes
  billy corgan - fév 97 chicago recording company - 3:10
  dans "adore demos"
do you close your eyes when you kiss me
do you close your eyes if you miss me
and do you wonder why
i sent for you tonight
do you wonder why
golden bells are ringing in the year
through all the tears you cried for me
i always knew you could
so hide inside your looking-glass surprise
the lies become the truth you hide
the lies become the lusty night
do you close your eyes when you kiss me
do you close your eyes if you miss me
and do you wonder why
i sent for you tonight
do you wonder why
do you dream your dreams when you're with me
and do you see the things that i see
and is it true enough
is it true of love
secrets cloud your ears and fill your nights
with compromise and shadows torn
you make your way to him
the moon becomes your silent confidant
the one you want will stand alone
the one you love is never known
do you close your eyes when you kiss me
do you close your eyes if you miss me
and do you wonder why
i sent for you tonight
do you wonder why

Drain
  billy corgan - late 1998 sadlands (billy's house) - 2:49
  dans "machina acoustic demos"
may i walk beside your shadow, softly
bless the ground you walk upon so easy
innocence, come to me
squandered in anarchy
can i drain your body of its fever
turn my cheek while you are weak and starving
we all know who you are
what you've become, you're a star
sweet dreams you don't want to change
by means at your own hands
remote and isolated
predoubt all that you see
innocence, come to me and be your belief and see
may i walk beside your shadow, softly
bless the ground you walk upon so easy

East
  billy corgan - late 1988 reel time studios - late 1988 schwa productions - 1989 reel time studios - 4:11
  ds the smashing pumpkins - "A La Mode Vol. 1" - "Demo Cuts 7"" - "Early 1989 Demos" - "Eightynine"
  "The Forgotten Songs Pt. 1" - "Pumpkin Seeds" - "The Singles and More" - "Sounds of Turnips"
  "Sunshine of Your Love" - "The World Is A Vampire"
  le 16/03/89 ds wzrd-fm studios à chicago - live le 30/04/89 au chicago metro
Tried to tell her who I really am
But I'm not so sure that I really can
Well, you've got to know, I don't understand
Well, you've got to know who I really am
Give me one more chance
As I child, I once had a dream
My mother spoke something down to me
She said, son, you must walk upon your knees
Down the road, headed for the east
Give me one more chance
Give me one more chance
If I had a way to go, I'd gather up my throwing stone
Tried to tell her who I really am
But I'm not so sure that I really can
Well, you've got to know I don't understand
'Cause I'm not so sure who I really am
If I had a way to go, I'd gather up my throwing stone
If I had a way to go, I'd gather up my throwing stone

Egg
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 2:24
  ds moon demo - eye demo
and you're bluffing
'cause your eyes were born to see
something
go ask joe
if you're blinded
the shield must solve alone
safe to say
go ask joe
she said all things would end
change your ways
all of you
when you're bluffing
when your eyes were born to see
something
go ask joe

Fat Man Blues
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios (acoustic sessions) - 3:20
  ds "mashed potatoes" (1994)
will i see you smiling
when i see you out the door
then i know i'm lying
then i know i'm out the door
i'm out the door
then i know
that i'm really fucked
then i know that i'm gone
what you do
yeah, i love you too
and i know i'm what you want
what i do
yeah, i love you too
and you're all than i want
oh
what it is, i know then
what it is, i know is true
talk about you
when i want, i'm feeling
what i know i'm seeing to
talk about you
what it is
i don't really know
what it is doesn't show
what you'll do
yeah, i love you too
can i see you to the door
what you'll do
yeah, i love you too
and i'll see you to the door
doo doo doo doo doo
[whistling]
([laughs] keep 'em rolling, wooo)

Frantic Ab Groove
  billy corgan - fall 94 sadlands (billy's house)
  ds "acousticollie and the infinite outtakes" - "billy's home demos"
  "demos & outtakes from mellon collie & the infinite sadness" - "knock on wood"
  "mcis demos I" - "the mellon collie demos"
  Instrumentale

Here I Am
  billy corgan - late 98 sadlands (billy's house) - 3:26
  ds "machina acoustic demos"
they say that freedom is something you make
independence, some sort of change
happiness, a smile, and a fleeting look
who appears inside the soul i strew so with love?
here i am okay, okay
there i go alone, easy
here i am to stay, thank you
there i go alone
a cat purrs to prove that she's still a cat
a dog barks at you to prove he's all that
and you'll destroy everything clear in your path
to scream that you're human and want something back
here i am okay, okay
there i go alone, easy
here i am to stay, thank you
there i go alone
a child you were born, a child you'll return
counting your miles, scarred by what you've earned
penetrate the silence with a silence all your own
only you can know what's still left to burn
here i am okay, okay
there i go alone, easy
here i am to stay, thank you
when i was afraid
there i was okay, okay
there i go alone, easy
here i am to stay, thank you
when i was afraid

Holiday
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio
  live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago
open up your heart and let your demons out
open up your heart and let your demons out
i been waiting, waiting, waiting for you
i been waiting, waiting, waiting yes it's true
gather up your world and realize your worth
gather up your worth and celebrate this birth
i been waiting, waiting, waiting for you
i been waiting, hesitating yes it's true
i can't throw it away i can for another holiday
open up your heart open up your heart
i been waiting, waiting, waiting for you
hesitating, waiting for you
i can't throw it away i can for another holiday
i can't throw it away i can for another holiday

I Am One II
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios (acoustic sessions) - 6:01
  ds "rareties vol.1"
  Like the sun yeah I am one
  raise and fall when I'm done
  so high in the sky
    And we say what we say
    and we do as we please
    and we break every rule
  Like the sun yeah I am one
  raise and fall when I am done
  what you wait for in the sky  my oh my
    And we break every rule
    and we do as we please
    and we say what we want
  I need

I Fall
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio
  live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago
it makes no difference to me if i die in my sleep tonight
i'm sick to the bone and longing for home
my blood runs white and i didn't want anyone
and i didn't want anyone to be hurt by my words
if there's pain in hell, i'm feeling it today
wishing i were seven in a children's heaven
how heavy the world weighs how heavy the world weighs
how heavy the world weighs how heavy the world weighs
ghosts don't cry and the dead don't die
they walk hand in hand as if partners in crime
partners in crime i fall
on and on and on down i fall
on and on and on down i'm falling down
on and on and on down i fall
on and on and on down
the world could feed you love
but it's me you've come to despise
like a head on a plate of purity
playing judas iscariot
in the hands of sanctity
how heavy the world weighs how heavy the world weighs
when one must carry the world i fall
on and on and on down i fall
on and on and on down i'm falling down
on and on and on down i'm falling down
on and on i fall down i fall down
when you're not around i fall
on and on and on down i fall down
on and on and on
on and on and on
on and on and on down
i fall down i fall down
how heavy the world weighs how heavy the world weighs

Jennifer Ever
  billy corgan - 1988 schwa productions - 3:47
  ds the smashing pumpkins
  She always waits for someone Someone who'll never leave
  Reliving her decision Her arms cover me
   My couple, no-one To anyone believe
   She always waits for someone Someone, someone just like me
     Jennifer Jennifer Ever
     Jennifer
  Jennifer always tells me Please don't be afraid
  I just want to hold you I only want you to stay
   My couple, no one To anyone believe
   She always waits for someone Someone, someone just like me
     Jennifer Jennifer Ever
     Jennifer
     Jennifer Jennifer Ever
     Jennifer
   My couple, no one To anyone believe
   She always waits for someone Someone, someone just like me
     Jennifer Jennifer Ever
     Jennifer

Jesus is the Sun
  billy corgan - 1990 - 2:44
  ds "mashed potatoes"
christ knows
as christ grows
christ shows nothing but love
jesus
can you hear me
my pain is echoed through you
is your head filled with lies
and do you despise me if i try
if i try, why, why
jesus is the sun
you won't miss me
like i miss you too
you'll be sorry
like i'm sorry, why
it's not easy
when you're on your own
my love's weakness
your love's strength and bone
is your head filled with lies
and do you despise me if i try
why
jesus is the sun
christ knows
as christ grows
christ shows nothing but love
but love

Jesus Loves His Babies
  billy corgan - déc 90 mars 91 smart studios (gish recordings) - 2:42
  live le 22/06/91 au reckless records de chicago
jesus loves his babies
outside in the sunshine
i don't mind, no i don't mind
jesus loves his babies
even when they're out of line
i don't mind, no i don't mind
i'm fine
jesus loves his crazies
keepin' pace with her rhyme
i don't mind, no i don't mind
jesus loves his babies
outside in the
outside in the sun/shine [doubletracked and overlapping]
sunshine
over him
A la fin de la version studio, sur "mashed potatoes" :
[phone rings twice]
Billy (pitch-shifted vocals, high):
"Hi, this is Billy. I'm not home right now, but leave your name and number and I'll get back to you. Beeeeeep!"
Jimmy (pitch shifted vocals, low):
"Billy... Billy... pick up the phone, Billy. I know you're home. It's Jesus. I'm very angry with you. I'm going to punish you, Billy. Ah hah hah hah hah hah! I'm going to punish you Billy. Can you hear me, Billy? Are you listening? I hope you're listening, Bil-ly."

Laugh
  billy corgan - late 1998 sadlands (billy's house) - 2:47
  ds "machina acoustic demos"
if they didn't know you then
what makes you think they know you now
vengeance is swift and sweet and sure
insecure
do you laugh
could you laugh about it
i know that
i could live without it all
you will grow to love me
even if it kills me
do you laugh
and i will speak of solace
and invest in promise
promise not to get too deep
promised i'd never grow weak
but a soldier never comes home
battle rages on and on
do you laugh
could you laugh about it
i know that
i will live without it all
i will live without it all
i often see that empty road
destination still unknown
disappearing 'round the bend
'cause the end is never the end
do you laugh
could you laugh about it
i know that
i could live without it all
i could live without it all
do you laugh
do you laugh
do you laugh

Love (Hypnotised)
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 3:33
  ds "early 1989 demos" - "may we have a record contract, please ?" - "sounds of turnips"
  live le 31/10/89 au chicago metro
want you here
'cause i'm your man
when you love
do you love
you're only wishing
are you listening
fuck it up
do you love
siva's listening
siva's listening
'cause it's easy
it's so easy
to fall readily
or he won't fail you
and let you down
let you down
when you're cruel
hypnotized
through these eyes
love inside
it lies
seems like a dream
it'll go insane
to rain
through this umbrella

Lover
  billy corgan - late 98 sadlands (billy's house) - 2:45
  aka "one less moment" - "don't wanna be your lover" - "lover(demo)"
  ds "machina acoustic demos" - live le 12/12/98 au shrine auditorium de los angeles (ca)
if i speak my mind, will you hear me?
if i reach to you, will you feel me?
if i kissed you, would you love me?
one less moment to break your heart
one less love to tear apart
don't want to be your lover
don't want to be your friend
the spell we've surrendered
so just let me pretend
you don't exist
our connection is fixed
one more arrow to pierce your soul
one more chance to let go
in the mountain song, sing the echoes
in the long meadows, chasin' shadows
in the endless night you whisper endless praise
swear to god that you won't change
don't want to be your lover
don't want to be your friend
faith takes me over
so just let me pretend
you're not real
visions surreal
spirit channels
don't want to be your lover
don't want to be your friend
if i fall in love, will you forgive me?
if i lose my way, will you choose me?
if i change my mind, will you change me?

Methusela
  billy corgan - mar aou 95 chicago recording company - nov 94 pumpkinland
  ds "mcis demos II"
  what'd your father say to you when he reached right thru you
  did he say the things that we had learned from his father too
  so when do you become your own man become your own
  or are you just a shadow of something whole
     we are chinese boxes equal parts sweat and blood
     where do i begin and end up saw those eyes staring right back upon me
  so tell me what you need i'll be watching out for you
  there are no enemies only dangerous friends
  you grew up very fast i didn't think i'd miss a thing
  course nothing ever lasts
  a wise old man a wise young fool
  a wise young man a wise old fool
   try to understand
   (a wise old man, a wise young fool) (notice me, comfort me, understand me)
   just try to understand
   (a wise old man, a wise young fool) (notice me, comfort me, understand me)
  what'd your father say to you to turn you cold
  father never quite grew up he just grew old
  and if i was to say to you you know i love him still
  would you think less of me from hating me
     we are chinese boxes equal parts sweat and blood
     we are so unconscious saw those old eyes staring right back at me
  so try to understand i'm just like you and you are me
  exactly who i am might escape you always
  for fortunes of a man are the debts of the son always
  a wise old man a wise young fool
  a wise young man a wise old fool

Moleasskiss
  billy corgan - spring 92 soundworks - 3:59
  ds "mashed potatoes"
my bed of roses
in this sea of pain
smoke in those poses
postures and refrains
a million ways
to break your back
still undecided if i'm coming back
hello to you my friends
we'll be together in the end
no doubt about it you can be sure
no doubt about it
too many buzzards
and debutantes
i give you this reply
take anything you want
just know i'll use you
cause i've lost myself again, yeah
hello to you my friends
we'll be together in the end
no doubt about it you can be sure
no doubt about it

My Mistake    partition
  billy corgan - fév 97 chicago recording company - 4:03
  ds "adore demos"
we're so young
and we're so dumb
we don't register calculations
and if you dare
and should i care
i could destroy you
and take you there
as the spitfires begin their descent
and tragic romantic ascent
my love is one hundred percent
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake
mistake, it was all my mistake
so suck me through
your saliva screws
and i can't help myself if i don't know
the flaws in you
that were equal to
the mysteries of almost knew
and i've said this so many, many times
can't help you out of your mind
so please don't judge me a time
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake
and if you pretend
please try to offend everyone
we share the same monkey disease
so give me my grape of peace
and do what you want as you please
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake
come back to me, my mistake

Nothing and Everything
  billy corgan - late 88 schwa productions - 5:50
  ds the smashing pumpkins - eye demo - live at cabaret metro 10-5-88
  live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago - 05/10/88 au metro de chicago
  19/11/88 au roselle music de roselle (il) - 16/03/89 aux wzrd-fm studios de chicago
Hiding behind my hair today
Dance with fire
The thought of living here
And the bounds I transpire
Walking in this slow-motion now
I think you've made so bad
Standing with your mannequin
I try to hold my breath
The grave that bears my name
Started a dream
A dream, immortality
Yet I fall in vain
Just as long as I don't breathe
I'll never be like them
Standing with your mannequin
I try to hold my breath
If you go and I would stay
And you would call my name
I would cry, yes, I would cry
Walking in or walking out
Is the same as talking about my heart
Hiding behind my hair today
Wishing I was far away
Walking in this slow-motion town
I seem to be so bad
Standing with your mannequin
I try to hold my breath
If you go and I would stay
And you would call my name
I would cry, yes, I would cry
Walking in or walking out
Is the same as talking about my heart
My heart
Walking in or walking out
Is the same as talking about my heart
My heart
If you go and I would stay
And you would call my name
I would cry, yes, I would cry
Walking in or walking out
Is the same as talking about my heart
My heart

Psychodelic
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios
  ds moon demo - eye demo
  live le 30/04/89 au metro de chicago
taking my time
taking everything i have
losing my mind
losing everything i have
who do you want to be?
you want satisfaction you can't receive
who do you want to be?
you want satisfaction you can't receive
harder to find
easy to just walk away
i'm losing my mind
i've lost everything i have
and i have
and i have
yeah, i have
who do you want to be?
you want satisfaction you can't receive
how many times will you leave?
you want sati-satisfaction you can't receive
[and i thought that i knew who it was (?)]

Pulseczar
  billy corgan - déc 92 mar 93 triclops sound studios - 2:16
  ds "earphoria"(promo)
Yeah
I see you comin' from the sky
I see you callin' from the sky
Your sky can't heal you again
Your sky won't heal you again
Why must I try oh why must I try
'Cause I'm waiting for you
Like never waited for me
Why oh why, oh why why oh why
I try why oh why
Must I try
I know what you mean

Screaming
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio
  live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago

She
  billy corgan - 1989 - 3:45
  ds the smashing pumpkins - live at cabaret metro 10-5-88
  live le 05/10/88 au metro de chicago - 19/11/88 au roselle music de roselle (il)
  She will never, ever go Waiting for her man Waiting for her man
  She will never, ever know Waiting for her time Waiting for her time
  Walk the world, I hear a noise Standing in her voice Sickle in her choice
     She is everything Monday or Tuesday
     Wednesday's another game Waiting for Sunday
     I'm the one she swore she'd never love
     I'm the one I know she's thinking of
  She will never, ever burn Waiting for her town Waiting for her town
  She will never, ever sit Waiting for her game Waiting for her game

Sinfony
  billy corgan - déc 92 mar 93 triclops sound studios - 0:50
  ds "earphoria"(promo) - "billy don't be a hero" - "fish jam"
  Instrumentale

Snap
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios
  le 16/03/89 aux wzrd-fm studios de chicago - 30/04/89 au chicago metro
I'll break
Someone somewhere
To show
How big I am
You know
I'm not sorry
I'll take
Everything
I wouldn't give you the time of day
You were my only
What can I say
Not alone now
Cause I'm not alone
You'll beg
Me to save her
To show me the way
I wouldn't give you away
Away
I wouldn't give you the time of day
You were my only
What can I say
Cause I'm not alone

Soot and Stars
  billy corgan - machina demo
  "judas o"

So Very Sad About Us
  billy corgan - nov 1994 pumpkinland - 3:27
  ds "mcis demos II" - morceau ds pastichio medley
  Instrumentale

Sparrow
  billy corgan - home demo - adore outtake
  "judas o"
marrow marrow
silent sparrow
secret serpentine smile
distant crying child
you're my lost little love
you're my lost little one
urgent arrow
arcane echo
my my my have we thrown
together apart and together again
we were scattered friends
like the whistling wind
you can see me wait
singing the same
but if i did and i meet you there
you hold my hand pretend you understand that
I'm just one man still a boy perhaps
simple silent humble human being
you were scattered friends
like the whistling wind
you can see me where
singing the same
and i fault those distant owls
and ocean miles
and mountain wilds
and field of stars
and restless church
moving wrong and soaring gone gone gone
and the ?guilted? lying ears
i can't hear you now

Speed
  billy corgan - mar aoû 95 chicago recording company - 3:40
  ds "double door" - version instru dans "billy's gravity demos" (A drone)
  live les 21/ 27/ 28/02/95 au double door de chicago
all the worlds that we possess
are slipping thru our hands
chances are we'll not return
to know or understand
but from the same self ether springs
the flowers of which your garden grows
as the gods breathe their sweetened breath
upon the backs of us all
can you feel it? in your bones
can you feel it? on your own
i am just a question mark
hanging on the wall
choke me back with inspirations
too numerous to care
come on in the water's warm
we're waiting for you now
take the plunge you can't escape
the feelings if you dare
can you feel it? in your bones
can you feel it? on your own
and on my own, i can't escape you all
and on my own, i can't escape you all
and on my own, i can't escape you all
everything i give to you i give it for myself
everything i need from you i need it for myself
everything i take from you i take it for myself
everything i want from you i want it for myself
can you feel it? in your bones
can you feel it? on your own
and on my own, i can't escape you all
and on my own, i can't escape you all
'cause on my own, i can't escape you all
and on my own, i can't escape you all
not at all not at all not at all

Spiteface
  billy corgan (the marked) - late 88 schwa productions - 4:39
  ds the smashing pumpkins - live at cabaret metro 10-5-88
  live le 05/10/88 au metro de chicago - 16/03/89 ds wzrd-fm studios à chicago
  lives tease les 11/12/93 (cincinnati-oh), 14/05/00 (austin-tx), 24/05/00 (berkeley-ca), 02/12/00 (chicago metro)
Your words will one day spite your face
And another mouth will come and take its place
It'll speak and speak and speak and sputter me dry
I will never understand the motive drive
Muck You Up Muck
In a dream I wander on
To the bell tower, writing songs
So I crumple this page, and rip it up
Never piece my broken heart to you
Muck You Up Muck
Your words will one day spite your face
And another mouth will come and take its place
It'll speak and speak and speak and sputter me dry
I will never understand the motive drive
Muck
Your words will spite your face
Your words will spite your face
Spiteface Spiteface
Spiteface Spiteface

Stars Fall In
  billy corgan et james iha - 1989 reel time studios
  ds moon demo - eye demo
I know this room just crumbled like a tomb
surrender to the day that I made
Hey ey ey ey Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey
Hey ey ey ey Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey
You'll waste it
you're not simple
When my head swells just like a balloon
so soon I must realize
one by one we're dangerous
now lead us to blasphemy
Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey
How I want to touch your soul complete
higher than I ever want to be
I'm in love with you
Over the edge and over to the show
proud of the show and the neon lights
what I've done has brought me home
look at me who would have known
Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey
Hey ey ey ey Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey
Hey ey ey ey Stars fall in
Hey ey ey ey

STP
  billy corgan - version studio ds "mashed potatoes" (paroles) - aka "what you wanted"
  aussi ds "out of focus" - "shine" - "virgins" - live en 1991
this is where i've left my friends
some are real and some pretend
all of you you knew me well
cause i've never ever been
strong
now i know
now i'm strong
i don't want it
what you got me
when you want it
to be
through me
to be
through me
cause i will [?]
cause i will [?]
right through you

Stray Cat Blues
  rolling stones - 1989 reel time studios - 3:37
  ds "mashed potatoes"
put your feet on the sand
and you want share of honey
i'd be pleased if you'd just come upstairs
it's no hanging my door it's no capital crime
i can see you, just fifteen years old
i don't want your i.d
you're scared you're so far from home
it's no hanging my door it's no capital crime
woah yeah
and it's '69 woah yeah
scratch my back, woah yeah
your momma don't know where she scratched my leg.
bet she never saw you scratch my back
you're scared cos you're so far from home
and you really miss your mother
you're so scared i'm not gonna do anything
it's no hanging my door it's no capital crime
whoa yeah woo! whoa yeah
and i can say my eyes are wider than you
why don't you bring her upstairs
she's the one, she can't join in too
it's no hanging my door it's no capital crime
whoa yeah
scratch my back, whoa yeah
scratch my back, woha yeah
your momma don't know where she scratched my leg.
bet she never saw you scratch my back

Sun
  billy corgan - 88 billy's father's home studio - 88 reel time studios - 89 reel time studios (acoustic sessions) - 5:28
  ds the smashing pumpkins - eye demo - "light into dark" - aka "death of a mind"
  live le 16/03/89 aux wzrd-fm studios de chicago - 30/04/89 au metro de chicago
  What it wants is four more years
  Moving tears of pain
  Lost I go into your hiding room
  You'll be lost to me
     Walking in the sun I'll never feel the light
     Walking in the sun I'll never feel
  Why? Confusion haunts me still
  My will can't reign
  Lost I go into your hiding room
  You'll be lost to me
     Walking in the sun I'll never feel the light
     Walking in the sun I'll know that I never feel
     Walking in the sun I never feel the light
     Walking in my sun I know that I never feel

There It Goes
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio - 4:58
  ds live at cabaret metro 10-5-88
  live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago - 05/10/88 au metro de chicago
  23/11/88 au metro de chicago - 16/03/89 aux wzrd-fm studios de chicago
  There it goes playing with my heart again
  I don't know where Undercover for years
     For you now For you now For you now
     And the way you look at me makes me happy inside
     Knowing all the while I can't hide
  Let it go Wasting my years
  I was born to fear that was something in the air
     For you now For you now For you now
     And the way you look at me makes me happy inside
     Knowing all the while I can't hide
   When you've got to come back When you take me home When you've got come back
   Alone Alone
  There it goes playing with my heart again
  I don't know where undercover for years
     For you now For you now For you now
     And the way look at me makes me happy inside
     Knowing all the while I can't hide
   When you've got to come back When you take me home When you've got to come back
   All alone Alone

Translucent
  billy corgan - 1990 chicago demos - 3:42
  ds "mashed potatoes"
translucent
overdrawn
false missions
blow away
blow away
and i whisper but you can't hear
somehow i wonder
somehow you are near
i hear my heart break every day
i hear you call
and i hear you call
and i whisper when you are near
somehow i wonder
somehow you are near
i hear my heart break every day
yes, every day
every day
every day
yes, every day
i hear you call

Under Your Spell
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio - 3:07
  ds live at cabaret metro 10-5-88 - "mashed potatoes" - "rareties vol.1"
  live le 05/10/88 et le 23/11/88 au chicago metro - 16/03/89 ds wzrd-fm studios de chicago
  Under your spell Under your holy light
  Under your spell Under your holy light
     Take anything you want, this is where I am
  Under your spell Under your holy light
  Under your spell Under your holy light
     Take anything you want, this is where I am
     Everything I shared with you - Everything that I ought to be
     Everything I shared - Wondering who I ought to blame
  Under your spell Under your holy light
  Under your spell Under your holy light
     Take anything you want, this is where I am
     Everything I shared - Wondering who I ought to blame
     Everything I shared - Wondering who I ought to blame
  Under your spell Under your spell
  Under your spell Under your spell

Unknown Instrumental
  dans "friends and enemies of modern music"
  Instrumentale

Untitled
  billy corgan - 2000 - 3:50
  jouée sur Q101 le 29/11/00, enregistrée peu de semaines avant
should i know all we're missing
what's to stop what they're missing
to feel love, to be love
all around
anyone can hold a promise
not everyone can feel honored
to be love, to feel love
all around
send me on, hear me speak
let me be what i need
you're enough for me
many times while you sleep
i'm dreaming of what to keep
to know your wish, hold it true
to slay the things that trouble you
send me on, out of reach
listen here, feel me
just believe, just believe
you'll see
to feel love, to be love
all around
hold the truth if you want it
if you don't, i will flaunt it
to feel love, to be love
all around
when you're young you can promise
anything that you wanted
to be love, to feel love all around
send me on, let me speak
from my heart, i receive
plain happiness, just happiness
you and me
to feel love, to be love
all around
to be love, to feel love
all around
to feel love, to be love
all around
to be love, to feel love
around
i know your wish, i hold it true
(feel love around)
to hide the things that trouble you
(feel love around)
turn me on out of reach
(feel love around)
let me speak all my peace
(feel love around)
just believe what you keep
(feel love around)
you'll never need to hurry me
(feel love around)
to be love, to feel love all around
to feel love, to be love all around
to be love, to feel love all around
to feel love, to be love all around
to be love to feel love all around

Vanilla
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 2:50
  ds "mashed potatoes"
  do you scream or do you dream  i am vanilla
  i might consider this an invitation, yeah
  more than you think i need a drink  i am vanilla
  i might consider this an invitation, yeah
    she is my only friend
    i'm with her till, till the end
  yeah, they talk about me
    i'm with her all the time
    and i wish that she, she was mine
    yeah, they talk about me
  i am i am vanilla i am i am vanilla
  i might consider this an invitation, yeah
  do you dream or do you scream  i am vanilla
  i might consider this an invitation, yeah
  i might consider this an invitation, yeah

The Vigil
  billy corgan - 1988 billy's father's home studio
  ds nothing ever changes - live le 10/08/88 à l'avalon de chicago
and i saw right through
and though i knew, you know it suits me well
i'd wait for you
i dream about you
you know it suits me well
bound by your leaving
i'd since forgotten
i knew it then, but then i closed my mind
to the truth
awful, the awful words
you know my hands are tied
bound by your leaving
you know my hands are tied
wishing you were by
by my side
you know my hands are tied
bound by your leaving
you know it suits me well
wishing you were here
well it seems to show
only when i'm all alone
all alone
only when i'm all alone
it suits me well

Waiting
  billy corgan - nov 97 mar 98 sunset sound studios
  ds "machina 7 track ep"
Please drive slow
I've never been this way before
Violence reels in the underground
Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
To fill the meetings
To strike me down
No more a reason
Than god above
Let your curses run
Yes, I am waiting
For your love For your love
Radio waves of a dying sun
Radio speaks my soul alone
Forget my names, erase the page
And dinners draw the passengers
Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
My blood of treason
My tears of home
No more a feeling
Than being cold
Of playing on
Yes, I am waiting
As I walk your street
Yes, I am waiting
As I ride your dreams
Yes, I am waiting
Inside your doubts Inside your doubts
Just let me out Just let me out

Waiting (old demo)
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 3:35
  aka "mother" - "a trip unto bountiful"
(I'm gonna D-down tune.
cough > K? We're rolling, yes?
This is called 'A Trip Unto Bountiful')
Waiting I've been waiting
And you're here Oh, yeah
Starting I'm starting
Waiting Oh, yeah
I will be tough I will be tough
On this rooftop Oh, yeah
One step closer to you in the pain
Reaching Reaching to
Oh, you You are you
I will be tough I will be tough
I will be tough I will be tough

Waiting For You Now
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 2:23
  aka "unknown (waiting for you)"
waiting for you now
waiting for you now, somehow, somehow
did you ever wake up and call
wishing i was around
why don't you stop by sometime
stop on by sometime
sometime did you feel you're not so young
sometimes you feel you're growing old
come on home
come on home
waiting for you now
waiting for you now, you now, you now
did you ever wake up and wish you were someone else
i know this feeling
???
down to the core
sometime
we all wanted sunshine
sometime
you know i feel it sometimes
when you're blind
waiting for you to call
waiting for you now, you now, you now

Wave Song
  james iha - 1991 chicago demos - 4:07
  ds "mashed potatoes"
waves over water
my gaze washes over
while you wave
while you wave
summer dreams
your life drowns me
underwater
you feel a quiver
and i feel a sliver
wave over wave
over me
wave over wave
over me over me
hey, love, come hold me
sliver across your belly
and while you wait
while you wait
life drowns me

Why Am I So Tired ?
  billy corgan - déc 90 mar 91 smart studios (gish recordings)
  ds "earphoria"
  Instrumentale

Winterlong
  billy corgan - machina demo
  ds "judas o"
and if i fall
into you all
will my reign
cease and disarm
some come too hard
others to grace
so let my friends fly
under these wings
we're giving it up to the sun
we're giving it up to the moon
we're giving it up to the earth
giving up from a room
know when there's nowhere to run
know when there's not much to lose
sometimes it seems so long
since you had a chance to refuse
we built a fire
winterlong
transformed new ion (iron?)
winterlong
i was the first one
i was the last one to be strong
and if i fall
into you all
will the silence shatter and stall
some feel movement
others stand still
so let the moment
become my will
we're giving up to the sun
we're giving it up to the moon
we're giving it up to the earth
giving it up from a ?rouse?
know when there's nowhere to run
know when there's not much to lose
why does it take so long
to find out who is who
we built a fire
winterlong
transformed new ??
winterlong
i was the first one
i was the last one to be strong
we're giving it up to the sun
we're giving it up to the moon
we're giving it up to the earth
giving it up from your own?
we're giving it up to the sun
we're giving it up to the moon

Wishing You Were
  billy corgan - fall 1994 sadlands (billy's house) - 3:07
  on retrouve les paroles dans "the aeroplane..." et le piano ressemble à "for martha"
Wishing you were real
So I could wish you mine
Wishing you were real
A thing that already is divine
A woman lies with the dewdrops
Her courage with the stars
Wishing you were real
So I could spy you from afar
An ... of horseflies
And spider eyes
Spun through her gilded webs of hope
And mercy crimes
Wishing you were real
So I could wish you mine
Wishing you were real
A thing that already is divine
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Take our secrets to the grave
Safely held beneath the thoughts
The secrets will be lost
While I'm forever ...
I'm wishing you were real
My face is blistered true
Wishing you were real
So that I could always wish for you
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real

With You
  billy corgan - 1989 reel time studios - 2:44
  ds moon demo - eye demo
low, low, so low with you
go, go, i'll go with you
with you
take, take me somewhere
wake me, dream somewhere
and you're peelin' back your eyes
some disguise
trouble you just can't hide
and you're feeling so low, so
i'll wait with you
i'll wait with you